
unwrapping the present
Updated: Apr 28, 2020
writing from The Call april 5, 2020

of course shiloh gets up now. during The Call. during the writing.
layers upon layers of shoulds and I wants...
always a pull
from aaron,
from shiloh,
from “the multitude of voices”
in me.
layers upon layers
of shoulds and i wants and do’s
and don'ts.
invisible chains,
or if,
and I Am,
a gift, perhaps
these voices,
external internalized
are but layers of tissue
i unwrap
aaron
place him to the side
with care
and then shiloh,
folding him gently
the news? oh, that
i crumple
and toss in
the can
though it burns
and makes smoke
in my room
parents? i
gently slip my hands
fingers under that wrap,
love them,
place their love,
the love
that got me
here, on an altar,
to honor and care for
and serve, but not
obey. no more
obeying. I Am
Present.